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Feelin’ poetic justice

Dear self…

On being Honest within oneself:Today I learned, love is like a doubles match of tennis against the world. In the subconscious choice making process there were times I would stare out of the game feeling like “this was not my game.” Ambitious Testosterone driven young men make decisions for the immediate moments, not much room for focus on future outcomes of such events. Internally, I must have known laws of nature would not allow for this process of being in two places at once. This idea of angelic love/destiny integrating all my experiences could not sustain the variables that keeps the bonds between two individuals. But the game, it has made me the man you may see: intelligent, intuitive, and the same ambitions. Caring, laughing, consoling…

Love is a viscous breath to breath. Now I have learned in order to stay in loves grace one must flow with (communication, trust, and loyalty), otherwise our love bonds were mere temporary moments of cooperation of two souls, one training the other to learn something new. Like electromagnetic waves, there is nothing new, you amplified my existence and I distorted the phases between us, enough to lose you.

Love is like gains… We work on it to keep insight future events of guiding our grandkids. If you can see that, allow me to say that finally “now I see”. God is good all the time.

I have loved but one person, surely you know by now it is myself, yet, I have lost two women of good stoke. Ambitious me… You made the right choice, I am a headache unlike what Lomi says. …. Life is good.

Any woman that has felt betrayed by me, look at the situation, I am about to graduate with an electrical engineering diploma and a minor in business, plus all those other times I was at school learning… (Lady that was my path\my ambition\ my passion). I was restricted by your rules but not your path and that’s why we didn’t last.

I wish you what I wanted for me, unless you like to be treated badly then charge it to the game. 

Glory be to God.
Normally yours,

       ‘BigE … Tay’

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Nelson Mandela

Name:  Rolihlahla Nelson Dalibunga Mandela     Meaning of name:  pulling the branch of a tree     Date of Birth: July 18, 1918     Place of birth: Mvezo, a village near Mthatha in the Transkei

“I prevailed upon a fellow named Bikitsha, whom I knew from home, to help me carry the suitcase to the front gate [of Crown Mines in Johannesburg]. A watchman at the gate stopped us both and said he needed to search the bag. Bikitsha protested, asserting that there was no contraband in the suitcase … As the watchman was closing it, Bikitsha, who was a cocky fellow, said, ‘Why do you make trouble? I told you there was nothing there.’ […] the watchman … then decided to search the case with a fine-toothed comb [… ] reached to the bottom of the case and found the very thing I prayed he would not: a loaded revolver wrapped inside some of my clothing. He turned to my friend and said, ‘You are under arrest.’ [….] The gun, an old revolver, had been my father’s and he had left it to me when he died. I had never used it, but as a precaution, I had brought it with me to the city.”

taking heat for a friend, B.
Nelson Mandela with friend Bikitsha 1941

September 1944 a band of 60 members came together to establish the African National Congress Youth League (ANCYL). Members such as William Nkomo, Sisulu, Oliver R Tambo, Ashby P Mda and Nelson Mandela (2nd from right in picture below).

ANCYL 1944 Nelson Mandela 2nd from right

August 1952, Johannesburg, Mandela in partnership with Oliver Tambo, opened South Africa’s first black law firm in central Johannesburg. At the Rivonia trial mr. Mandela states:

“At the beginning of June 1961, after long and anxious assessment of the South African situation, I and some colleagues came to the conclusion that as violence in this country was inevitable, it would be wrong and unrealistic for African leaders to continue preaching peace and non-violence at a time when the government met our peaceful demands with force. It was only when all else had failed, when all channels of peaceful protest had been barred to us, that the decision was made to embark on violent forms of political struggle, and to form Umkhonto we Sizwe … the Government had left us no other choice.”

In 1962 Mandela (the lawyer) taking a former clients name ‘David Motsamayi’ was awarded a passport by Ethiopian Officials, travelled to Addis Ababa, Ethiopia and addressed the Conference of the Pan African Freedom Movement for East, Central, and Southern Africa (PAFMECSA).  Several other countries he visited for requests of economic and political support including Tanganyika, Senegal, Ghana, Sierra Leone, Tunisia, Morocco, and Egypt to name a few. While in Ethiopia on the orders of the Emporer Haile Selassie, mr. Motsamayi (Nelson Mandela) received military training  from Ethiopian special forces, General Tadesse Beru and Col Fekadu Wakene were in charge of Mandela’s training. General Beru gave mr. Mandela a Makarov pistol for protection. Upon his return home on 5 August 1962, he was arrested for illegally leaving his country; just a week before he buried his pistol (estimated worth of $3 million) and ammunition at the farmhouse/safe-house. 

Nelson Mandela with Gen. Tadessa Beru 1962
former Safe-house where $3 million Marakov pistol is presumed buried.

February 11, 1990 mr. Mandela was released after 27 years in prison. April 27, 1994 the people of south Africa voted to end the era of apartheid. May 10, 1994 Rolihlahla Nelson Dalibunga Mandela was inaugurated as president of democratic South Africa.

Election rally March 15, 1994

Inauguration speech highlights:

“We dedicate this day to all the heroes and heroines in this country and the rest of the world who sacrificed in many ways and surrendered their lives so that we could be free… Their dreams have become reality. Freedom is their reward… We are both humbled and elevated by the honor and privilege that you, the people of South Africa, have bestowed on us, as the first President of a united, democratic, non-racial and non-sexist government… We understand it still that there is no easy road to freedom. We know it well that none of us acting alone can achieve success. We must therefore act together as a united people, for national reconciliation, for nation building, for the birth of a new world. Let there be justice for all… Let there be peace for all. Let there be work, bread, water and salt for all. Let each know that for each the body, the mind and the soul have been freed to fulfill themselves… Never, never and never again shall it be that this beautiful land will again experience the oppression of one by another and suffer the indignity of being the skunk of the world. Let freedom reign.

Mandela Family Tree:

Mandela Family Tree

Nelson Mandela’s first televised interview in 1961. 

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If a person is cleaver enough to trick you, do you consider that person cleaver or smart?

This is me needing to figure out what the future of intelligently converged product of both hardware and software to enable any user to choose what they may… is going to be called. As of yet, products are called Smart-whatevers. That word smart is being used for the wrong devices, I mean we did not call the desktop, laptop, or tablet the smart-pc, smart-laptop, or smart-tablet respectively. Matter of fact what about the MP3 players being not worthy of the smart title.

PDA + mobile phone
Ericsson penelope- first “smartphone”

The term smartphone was used for mobile phones with the  Ericsson GS 88 “Penelope”. At the time incorporating mobile phones with PDA (personal digital assistant) resulted in having a smart device (as coined by Ericsson). Webster dictionary defined smartphone as “a cell phone that includes additional software functions (as e-mail or an Internet browser)”. The oxford dictionary defines it as: “a cellular phone that is able to perform many of the functions of a computer, typically having a relatively large screen and an operating system capable of running general-purpose applications”.


The video above is of a (later) different model, but, one can see the value and capabilities of the software compared to all the bloatware that is attached to new devices. Ericsson and sony joined forces, but their mostly windows phone environment failed after the release of windows 6.5 (sony Ericsson mobile was finally bought out by sony in 2012).

Although these communication devices carry the same internal parts as any computer, it would be counterproductive to call them computer phones (silly). Yet, in 2010 Google along with Samsung produced the nexus one and coined the term “SUPERPHONE“, for any capable phone with 4 inches of screen real estate. Iphones (3.5inch screen), by that definition, could only bare the title of being a smartphone. Samsung, on september 16, 2010 answered the question what makes a smartphone smart with the statement:

Mobile technology growth has exploded in leaps and bounds during the last few years. Handsets have become so powerful that we can hardly call them phones anymore. So, what do we call a device that makes calls, plays videos, takes pictures, and more—try Smart Phone—a clever gadget that is more than just a phone… A PC in your Palm- A Smart Phone is like a pocket-sized personal computer. Every Smart Phone has an operating system—such as Google’s Android or Microsoft’s Windows Mobile—running the show, working double-time to keep your device humming along quickly.

Hence, I drop the rant of what they should have been called to how to make them act smart; now that we have everything that could make them more capable then before. I will stick with the android variant because it is customizable.

For the look and visual operation of the home screens use these launchers.

If one is looking for Iphone look
espier Launcher
The one I use right now.
Nova launcher








If one would like to quarterback the device… meaning be able to look at any directory (most folders without rooting)


System Tuner
SystemPanelLite Task Manager








Random applications that make my phone more capable of functioning like a road-dog; why my phones always break, shutdown by itself.

Circuit Training Assistant
Viral Floating popup







Clueful privacy advisor
Graph 89
multicon widget








Scanner Radio
device info live
Lookout Ad Network Detector







hardware tests
Bounce – be on time
Sleep as android







Google translate
Instant Heart Rate








Human Anatomy Atlas
theScore: Sports & Scores








There are many Applications that could give me choices, but ideally without me having to input what category I am looking to make choices from is the future. When we say smart it would have been like having Watson on a (wearable) device. Watson thinks, it is autonomous, it’s online like student.



With intention to write more soon.

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Journey starts with your first step, lets step out, and absorb this new energy.

I am a student at San Jose State University, electrical engineering department. This school is great and is very practical, whereas most of the (credible) campuses around are big on theoretical learning. There is nothing wrong with the other schools, one will have the ability to use the power of the school name as-well-as the strength of their intelligence to obtain management positions. Yet, when it comes to being able to build, trouble shoot, and design… a practical school is the key.

Is your journey on a clear path.

Dark clouds are always around, the idea is behind knowing they are not around… There will always be individuals inabilities. The bully factor rules supreme above all in the “survival of the fittest” world; yet, now the fittest is the smart, intuitive, and mechanically inclined individual. It is time to build ones ability to be one of the fittest, take the next steps to live knowing the dark clouds are not around.

Brighter days are made of these…

Everybody is always looking for something. Accept the chosen path and follow they journey through. Make a future worth relaxing in for oneself. The school one attends will soon not matter other then social statues. The times of receiving lectures from different locations and times is here. Strangely, lectures started because there were not enough books, then there were not enough seats, and now there will be many lectures on the same materials from hundreds of lecturers. The educational system has given itself a shot (unions) that it cannot recuperate from. Soon it will become the knowledge one has accumulated and wether this person is able to physically perform these said tasks. Recognize the opportunity, know the options, and minimize the risk… but also one must be happy where they are, where they are going, and most of all where they came from… because “if you do not know where you come from, you will fall for anything.”